Prized Posessions

With the many horrific fires burning up the state if Colorado, I started to think about what I would grab if I were forced to evacuate my home. As I pondered this decision, I realized I am not very attached to many things. I could care less if I lost my furniture or televisions. My clothes would take a long time to replace, but it is not something I need to be happy and to be me. However, sentimental items such as pictures and jewelry given to me by family and friends were things that I wouldnt want to be without. Luckily I have most of my important documents on some sort of electronic source, so simply grabbing my laptop and flash drive would cover the logical items.

So here is my list. I narrowed it down to 5:

1- 3 Loving Dogs

2- Laptop

3- Scrapbooks

4- Sentimental Necklaces and Rings

5- 1 suitcase of Clothes and Toiletries 

Unproductive

I have a feeling this week is going to be very unproductive. I get to work and just stare into nothingness, unmotivated to do the work on my desk. And the sad thing is, I really don't care about the consequences of not getting it done. Because if I did get fired, at least I would be forced to makes adjustments in my life for the lack of income. Choosing to do that just doesn't make sense.... weird how your mind works when you really just don't care.

Choices

I absolutely hate making choices. I am never 100% satisfied with my choice, ever. Considering life is FULL of choices big and small, it makes for a very stressful and doubting existence. Many say.. "Why don't you weigh the pros and cons?" That is easier said than done. How do you measure you own personal happiness verses the logical choice?

I see people every day who pick personal happiness over money, material items, or paying of their debts. They appear to enjoy life and not feel controlled by their paycheck. But I always question if they are truly happy, or if they are putting on a brave face.

The people who have a mortgage, and car payments, and credit cards seem more stressed out and miserable, but they typically have nicer things. Even though they have a steady paycheck, most of it goes to paying their bills. They usually belong to the whiners and complainers category, I happen to be one of them.

So what do you do, chose the road less travelled and hope that you be happy? Or do you chose stability and go on living hoping that one day your perseverance and hard works pays off, bringing you happiness?



Happy Summer Solstice!

 

So we grew together,
Like to a double cherry, seeming parted,
But yet an union in partition;
Two lovely berries moulded on one stem;
So, with two seeming bodies, but one heart

-A Midsummer Night's Dream

 

According to Ancient Pagans, Summer Solstice is a time of healing and fertility. Every day I witness the wave of fertility sweeping over those around me, bringing joy and excitment into the men and women who will soon welcome a special addition to their family. Let this time bring healing for all those who have lost someone this past year, and fertility for those hoping to expand thier loving families.